Bleeding
I’m
bleeding, I’m not ok,
You stole
it, my heart this way,
I’m
bleeding, just go away,
I’m broken
but I’ll heal today
If you
would stay away
If you would stay away!
I’m tired
of the waiting,
And Sick of
the pain.
All you did
was start the hating,
And you’re driving me insane.
As I’m
trying to find my way,
I’m
wandering, scared and numb.
No
guidance, where do I go?
Is there a reason, for my demise?
Cause There’s no comfort in knowing I’m alone
Why am I dying to find,
Myself here in this darkened place.
There is just, no escape,
Cause the memories will always stay.
Even if this pain will fade,
The scars will never go away.
This has gone on for so long,
That there
is nothing left to gain.
Correct if I’m wrong,
But you’re the only one to blame.
Now I’m
bleeding, I’m not ok,
You stole
it, my heart this way,
I’m
bleeding, just go away,
I’m broken
but I’ll heal today,
If you
would stay away,
If you
would stay away!
My own
Is there a
measurement?
Some kind
of indication of happiness,
Is there a
place where you can’t get hurt?
Safe and
secure, to call your own?
Making
mistakes is part of life,
Learn from
them, use them,
Let them be
our guidance.
Let it lead
you trough the days.
Life isn’t
fair, it will never be,
Let there
be a place for me.
Pain and regret
Pain and
regret,
The things
you won’t forget.
All the
things that went wrong,
The feeling
you don’t belong.
You can
feel it here,
The tension
and fear.
The broken
hearted,
Searching
where this all started.
Can’t seem
to find, the answers I’m trying to find.
Pitch
black, alone, blind.
Could there
be a way for me to say.
Just want
these feelings to go away.
Don’t wanna
hide,
No longer
wanna fight.
I won’t be
down, no longer.
This time
I’ll be stronger.
You won’t
hurt me with the things you say,
You won’t
hurt me with the things you do.
But still
my heart belongs to you.
Reminisce
There is
just to much said and done,
Don’t know
when this all begun.
I know
you’re no longer here.
That the
only thing you left me with was fear.
I still
don’t know what I did wrong,
But some
how I’ve got to be strong.
Can’t give
in to the sorrow,
It only makes
me feel hollow,
I can’t
deny the scars on my soul,
Your
leaving left a hole.
It’s not
that easy to fill it up,
Since we’ve
clearly split up.
I’ll try to
forget you,
You’re not
one out of a few,
There
are more fish in the sea,
I know one
of them Will be the one for me,
But is hard
to have a happy home
Cause its
lonely knowing you’re all alone,
No longer blinded
The times
were hard, some things were bad,
I cherished
all the things we had.
Every time
you dragged me down,
I forgave
you without a frown.
Now I’m
crying, alone in the darkness,
I’m hiding
from the stuff in my life.
I’m
screaming my lungs out,
As I’m trying to hide the pain.
There is
just too much to say,
I just got
to know my place.
And I
learned the hard way
There are
things time can’t erase.
I was
stubborn not to see,
All the
things you did to me.
But it’s
all over now.
I’m no
longer gonna bow.
I was blinded, trying to find it,
The love I
never had,
But you
were never there for me,
When I
cried myself to sleep
I still
tremble when I sleep at night,
Still my
love for you has died.
I just
can’t go on this way,
Its time for us to break!
It seems
that I never knew, Loving as lovers do.
To me pain
was a part of it, in that place in my heart that I always hide.
Not wanting
the scars to see, you were always the world to me.
So naïf and still so young, O god was I wrong.
There is
just too much to say,
I just got
to know my place.
And I
learned the hard way
There are
things time can’t erase.
I was
stubborn not to see,
All the
things you did to me.
But it’s
all over now.
I’m no
longer gonna bow.
Feel
Can’t you
feel it?
I loved
from the start.
Can’t you
see it?
Cause I’m falling apart.
I just want
to be there for you,
I know what
you’ve through.
Forget the
things he said,
He was messing with your head.
His love
for you isn’t real,
If there
could be a way to show you how I feel.
Even though
you call on me to comfort you,
You never
see what you mean to me.
Why can’t I
be the one for you?
Is my love
not good enough for you?
To you I
lost my soul,
Without you I’m not whole.
It’s eating
me from the inside,
Not having
you by my side.
You’ll be
the best I’ll never have.
You’ll be
the one I’ll always miss
Just cannot wait for ever for you,
Even if my
love for you is strong.
Happy that
you and him are through
You and him
don't belong.
4th of november
This night
shall be,
The only
thing you’ll see
Now I’m
lying here defenseless,
Withdrawn from all my senses.
I’m broken
and alone,
So far away
from home.
I’ve been
wearing this shroud.
Since the
day I found out.
My hearts
still full of shame,
When I’m calling out your name.
I just
can’t find my way around it.
All the things you did.
Can’t you
see, the things you do to me,
Even though
your touch makes me tremble,
The scars
made me remember.
Can’t you
see, the hurt you brought to me
You’re
everything I wanted,
You’re the
one I’ll always miss.
I’m
bleeding today, these scars will always stay,
They made me remember, the 4th of November.
The day that won’t be remembered,
The day
that won’t be relived.
If I would
never remember.
I would
forget what you did.
Got to stay
down under.
You can’t find what I hid.
I won’t be
hurt no longer,
From this
point on, I’ll be stronger.
I’ll never
forgive you,
Can never
be with you.
Can’t you
see, the things you do to me,
Even though
your touch makes me tremble,
The scars made
me remember.
Can’t you
see, the hurt you brought to me
You’re
everything I wanted,
You’re the
one I’ll always miss.
I’m
bleeding today, these scars will always stay,
They made
me remember, the 4th of November.
Old wounds
There is
just to much said and done,
Don’t know
when this all begun.
I know
you’re no longer here.
That the
only thing you left me with was fear.
I still
don’t know what I did wrong,
But some
how I’ve got to be strong.
Can’t give
in to the sorrow,
It only makes
me feel hollow,
I can’t
deny the scars on my soul,
Your
leaving left a hole.
It’s not
that easy to fill it up,
Since we’ve
clearly split up.
I’ll try to
forget you,
You’re not
one out of a few,
There
are more fish in the sea,
I know one
of them Will be the one for me,
But is hard
to have a happy home
Cause its
lonely knowing you’re all alone,
Misunderstood
Sometimes,
there are these moments,
The final
moment of clarity.
In the
moment that you realize,
That all
you’ve ever known,
And always
believed in isn’t real
That the
people you called your closest friends,
Of whom you
thought to know you,
Have always
been so far away.
No one
really ever understand you,
For a part
you stayed a stranger.
As you is a
magnet, only connecting to one,
And as time
passes, you’re turning,
Slowly
being pushed away.
To slow to
notice till it’s too late.
You’re on
your own again,
As you’ll
ever be.
Hurt and
misunderstood,
Keeping up
appearances
Forbidden love
Long brown
hair,
Crystal
blue eyes,
From the
girl which I’ve never realized.
With the
heart of an angel,
And as good
as a saint.
She’s
beautiful in every way,
It feels
like my heart is gonna faint
I always
knew you but never did,
now I do,
there’s only you.
The thing I
always wanted,
Was the
thing I never knew,
The thing
I’ve always wanted was you.
We’re
friends know, making sense now.
It feels
like were close,
I guess
that’s the path we chose.
We’ll never
be together.
We don’t
belong,
You’re with
my friend.
Waiting to
be with you is wrong.
And maybe
one day you’ll see,
What we
could be.
Till then
my feelings are in hiding
Cause I’m
tired of all the fighting.
Don’t wanna
fall for the wrong girl.
There’s no
chance that we,
Are ever
gonna be.
Dwell of the past
Gister heb ik een vriendin onze historie vertelt, ons verhaal. Wat we deden, wat we meegemaakt hebben. Alle goede en alle slechte dingen. Wat er ook gebeurden we waren er voor elkaar. We waren er voor elkaar op de momenten dat wij het het meeste nodig hadden. Dat zijn de herineringen die ik aan jou heb, dat is mijn verleden. Dat zijn de herineringen die ik bijna verloren was, weg gestopt, bang om ze kwijt te raken. Want dat waren goede tijden, dat was ons leven. Dat was het meisje aan wie ik mijn hart verloor. Wie mijn hart verdiende. Maar dat meisje heb ik in geen tijden meer gezien. Ik mis haar, waar ben je? Ik was zoveel voor je en nu? Ik weet niet eens wat ik voor je ben nu, behalve een ergenis. Maar een ergenis waarvan? Dat is de vraag die ik mij stel elke dag. Wat doe ik verkeerd, wat is er fout aan mij? Een vraag waar volgens mij zelfs jij het antwoord niet op weet. Het is gewoon daar, tussen ons in. Ik heb zoveel avonden en nachten gehuilt om jou. Niet snappend wat je wou of waarom je de dingen deed die je doet. Ik ben de weg kwijt en kan hem niet meer vinden. Ik wil weten wat er van ons gaat komen. Wat er van ons was, dat zal altijd blijven bestaan en dat geeft mij hoop voor de toekomst. I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me. Dat is hoe ik mij voel met tranen in mijn ogen. En een zweer in mijn maag.Scars
Let these scars be a warning, to myself, to my heart.
Why would I still care, the girl I once knew is gone.
Maybe deep down, somewhere in a dark place, she still exist.
That was the girl who deserved my heart, not you.
You're not worthy enough. the way you treat me.
Is breaknig me down, for head to toe.
I just can take this no more.
My heart is still trying but at the same time it's dying.
I hate myself for loving you.
I turned my head away, but my heart remains.
Unknown
Matters of the heart,Matters of the mind,
Where are the answers on the questions I'm dying to find.
Sit and wonder
Now I'm sitting here alone,
Just wondering what the future will bring.
Now I'm hiere on my own, left in the blue,
Just wondering if these things will ever be the same again.
I've evaded this for so long,
Stubborn and blind, not wanting to see the truth.
I've evaded this for so long,
Because deep down inside I knew.
I knew this day would come.
And now when it's there, it's way more painfull,
Then I could ever imagine, It's over.
Friendship
It are moments like these when you recognize your true friends.
Who will support you no matter what.
So will you stick with me or abandon me, the choice is yours.
Staring out into the night, trying to hide the pain
How do I know you won't steal my loveones,
Replace me and let them forget me.
Is it your intention to break me and see me suffer?
Don't have no heart at all?
Imagining life without you is so weird,
Even though we had our fights, we always made it up in the end.
There is this voice in my head who's sayin' this time is different.
Because you're different, you've changed.
I don't recognize you anymore, where is that girl that I fell in love with. The girl who was my best friend, my sister.
The only thing there is left is staring out into the night, trying to hide the pain.
Sweet Monkey
There he goes, on her tippy toes,
With such grace along with the smile on her face.
Her hair dances as leaves sturred in the wind hanging in the trees.
So let us begin, with the start of this thing.
It's friendship and love, you're an Angel from above.
You're there when i'm down to bring me to the light again.
Your love is unconditional, you're a true friend.
I love you my little monkey ;)
Gone and move on
You can't reverse the past, undo the things that are done.
Let the past be a reminder for the present.
Scars will stay forever, a sign of the past.
Let scars be a reminder of what happend.
Even though life goes on, the memory stays eternal.
A safeguard of the heart, protector of your soul.
You can hurt me but never take me down,
I will stand strong on move on!!
The dark side of the mind, tales of a broken man
Once we were the same, two parts of one,
We could sit next to each other for hours, not saying a word.
Or call you up in the middle of the night and talk for hours.
But somewhere along the way, we changed.
Something went wrong. Only a little bit, to small to notice.
Time passed by and is it did our difference became bigger.
Now we're different, but my feelings stayed the same,
You still mean the world to me. But everytime,
I try to reach out, You push me down.
Finally you gave me clearity. A glimpse of the truth.
You told me, you don't care anymore.
You told me, you you're not longer feeling like you did back then,
When all was good. That was back then, now all is lost.
Only the rubble remains, Ruines of a long lost civilazation.
But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember
Because today, you walked out of my life
Because today, your words felt like a knife.
Rude Awakening
Why did I care?
Why did I felt the pain and sorrow?
I thought I locked those feelings away.
So nobody could touch it, and forgot the existence of it.
Forgot even that I had those feelings, which only mad me sad in the first place.
You made me aware of them all over again, my rude awakening.
But locking things away only makes things worse,
That's the lesson I've learned.
You can't lock things away or cut it out of your heart.
You have to face them one day or another.
That's what i've learned today.
